I'm still fighting off the depression and shock I had from the scale at weigh in. I don't want to quit Weight Watchers but, I DO want to quit Weight Watchers. I almost feel like the whole thing is pointless. This was actually one of my huge fears about joining Weight Watchers in the first place; that I could not lose weight.
Not too long after I was first diagnosed as a diabetic, I was actively trying to lose weight and instead, I gained and gained and gained. The doctor I had at that time verbally chastised me that she could not help me if I would not help myself. At the time though, I WAS actively trying to lose weight and I had no idea what the heck was happening; how could I be gaining so much weight?
It wasn't until a few years later that another, a doctor who specialized in diabetes, told me that the medicine I was on at the time, Actos, will cause weight gain. And not just a little weight gain but lots of weight gain, especially the higher the dosage you take. Huh, and I'd had that quack doctor telling me that I had to quit eating so much when THAT had nothing to do with the weight gain. What a mess! Some doctor cause more harm than good. That's been my experience anyway because when she told me that I had to quit eating so much, and I WAS eating right, proper portions etc., I felt hopeless, sort of like I'm feeling right now.
I am not sure how to get over this hurdle. I don't know if I will, or even if I CAN, lose weight. I need to make a doctors appointment and go in and talk to him. I just don't like going to the doctor, not since my surgery three years ago; giant ovarian mass removal with complications. Bleck!
I'm still thinking and pondering and wondering what to do about this whole situation. I just don't know what the answer is yet.
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