Ready to Quit, Already....

I'm still fighting off the depression and shock I had from the scale at weigh in.  I don't want to quit Weight Watchers but, I DO want to quit Weight Watchers.  I almost feel like the whole thing is pointless.  This was actually one of my huge fears about joining Weight Watchers in the first place; that I could not lose weight.

Not too long after I was first diagnosed as a diabetic, I was actively trying to lose weight and instead, I gained and gained and gained.  The doctor I had at that time verbally chastised me that she could not help me if I would not help myself.  At the time though, I WAS actively trying to lose weight and I had no idea what the heck was happening; how could I be gaining so much weight?

It wasn't until a few years later that another, a doctor who specialized in diabetes, told me that the medicine I was on at the time, Actos, will cause weight gain.  And not just a little weight gain but lots of weight gain, especially the higher the dosage you take.  Huh, and I'd had that quack doctor telling me that I had to quit eating so much when THAT had nothing to do with the weight gain.  What a mess!  Some doctor cause more harm than good.  That's been my experience anyway because when she told me that I had to quit eating so much, and I WAS eating right, proper portions etc., I felt hopeless, sort of like I'm feeling right now.

I am not sure how to get over this hurdle.  I don't know if I will, or even if I CAN, lose weight.  I need to make a doctors appointment and go in and talk to him.  I just don't like going to the doctor, not since my surgery three years ago; giant ovarian mass removal with complications.  Bleck!

I'm still thinking and pondering and wondering what to do about this whole situation.  I just don't know what the answer is yet.

Running Behind.....Day Sixteen

I have been sick with a cold and that makes it hard to function.  Amazingly enough, I have been able to continue on the weight loss journey.  I admit, I haven't been quite the stickler I was when I first started but I also haven't gone crazy and eaten everything in sight. 

I made myself go to super Walmart to buy convenience foods, i.e. TV dinners.  I picked up the ones I like and that I know the Weight Watchers PointsPlus values for and that's almost all I have been eating this last week.  Since my adult daughter has been sick too, it makes it even harder for anyone to do any cooking in the house.  That would be the bad part of living with five other people, when one kid gets a cold, the rest of us are almost sure to catch it, especially since I have a compromised immune system (the diabetes).

So I had to make myself go to the Weight Watchers meeting on Friday morning.  My cold had me feeling pretty low but I felt like I needed to go just to keep me on track.  I am glad I did because I found out that I had lost another 4.2 pounds!  I am now down to 389.4 pounds AND I earned another 5 pounds lost star!  heehee

I am now on week 3 of Weight Watchers PointsPlus program and while it isn't easy peasy, at least it is not miserable, even though having a cold and being sick really is quite miserable!

Getting a Cold.... Day Eleven

Unfortunately I am coming down with a cold and I feel absolutely horrible.  It makes eating healthy a whole lot harder and I feel even MORE hungry than I did before. I thought when you were sick that you didn't get hungry as often?  Well, that's a lie!  LOL  And it's the pitts too since, like I said, not feeling real well at all.  So my choices for food have come down to whatever is the easiest to get.  I am still following the WW plan but, not quite as stringently as I was.  Until I feel a bit better though, I don't know what else I can do so, I will do the best I can!